If For All

What would be the use
If I Pour my heart out to you
To leave myself empty for what
It would make no difference at all
To build back up
What you let fall
This consent; conflict
My heart and mind
Is like the day and the night
Just as they change - I feel the same
Moments I’m in the dark - with what’s in my heart
But in the light - I question if it’s worth the fight
I miss you
Still I feel resentful
But I hold some kind of empathy
Only if you hurt the same
But I hold no sympathy
When you’re to blame
The gift of loving
To be left with noting

Mistakes

How boring a life would it be if not for mistakes

For the best we don’t always succeed

Life gives and takes

But you’ll always be left with what you need

The mystery in what we don’t understand

Is what makes this journey grand

How dull, if all went as planned

How Soon

How soon till it falls apart
How long can I hold it all together
Whether the wind blows it down
Or the water washes it away
Nothing ever seems to stay

Last Night I Dreamt Of You

Last night I dreamt of you

Though I can hardly recall as the feeling set in I forgot it all

It was then I knew what it felt to ache

It didn’t feel so great to be awake

So I tried to get back to that place

I’d close my eyes and see your face

At times I swear I heard you call out to me

You felt so close, you felt so near

Then I open my eyes and you’re still not here

Am I so wrong to want you all to myself?

I may be selfish

I can’t help it

I don’t want anyone else

And as that familiar feeling begins again

Reality, too sets in

There’s a pain in my chest from wanting you so much

It’s hurts, when you’re not close enough to touch

So I’ve found when I’m asleep, all of those thoughts disappear

I close my eyes and it feels like you’re here.

Young Girl

don’t be so quick fall in love
i know that’s what you feel you’re in need of
happiness wont come from the comfort of a man
there’s a lot you’ve yet to understand
about love and about life
and half what you think you know is never right
life is to short, with no guarantees
to spend so much time hanging on your insecurities
We all have imperfections-there are no exceptions
stop judging yourself so hard
learn to love who you are
If you don’t love yourself
how can anyone else
you may feel lonely now, but it’s not the end
your life has yet to begin
don’t look for acceptance in others
nor fulfillment in lovers
your own self pity-eventually
is what will leave you empty
some days may be hard to face
but as you push on it will all fall into place
if you ever feel like giving up-wait a little more
you’ll see there’s a lot to live for

Atop a mountain

a cabin atop a mountain
I spend my days counting
until the coming of times
watching them as they destroy there lives
atop a mountain over looking the sea
a beautiful sight to see
I had moved far away
I had left everyone behind
needless to say
I was unhappy with mankind
but don’t feel sad
I packed my bag, with every book I had
it makes for a pleasant day
a book by a fire, to pass the time away
our biggest mistake is that we are lost in haste
and often forget where we were going in the first place
if only we took time to see the beauty that is all around
then maybe our appreciation for all things would be more profound
have you ever looked at the sky and the stars as they dance
that feeling as you see one shooting at first glance
each day I watch the morning loom
so close to the stars I could touch the moon
atop this mountain no one exist but me
everything in life living peacefully
they say we are not meant to be alone
but never have I felt more at home

Lucid